I wish I never woke up. That I could just sleep forever and not have to feel the way I do and hear all the lies ppl tell me. I had to take my measurements today and I was a little disappointed. 34C-26-33. I know that's not too bad, the bad thing is that I'm 5'3" and I hate how I look. Everyone tells me that I look amazing, they just don't see what I see. They don't see the ugliness and fat all over me. And the worst of it all is that if I try to do anything about it, everyone will know and that'll cause more problems. Why can't I live my life the way I want? Why is there someone "looking out for me"? I know how to take care of myself, thank you very much. I can't even drink water without someone asking me a stupid question. If anyone has any advice, please share; I really need it.